tired!

i haven't had much/any sleep in the past 36 hours but i still feel so alive! part of me wants to sleep but part of me wants to keep on going. life is so awesome, especially these weekends that last so long coz i'm up for all of it.

kinda miss riding, though i don't appreciate the backaches it gives me. i rode this tiny lil horse in china that looked damn shag after i was done, lol!

still really wished cl would come visit, but i guess its fine, we can hang out on skype :)

que sera sera

i wanted to live for love, but now i think thats too unrealistic.

coz there isn't anyone you can depend on except yourself (or god).

in the past i always believed love is worth fighting for. but the only thing worth fighting for is happiness. whether love is part of that happiness or not is another story.

happy birthday daddy

celebrated my daddy's birthday last saturday and it was mighty fun. we all look really similar in these photos...and so happy =) love my family.

also happy birthday to nat and yiming who turned 21 last sat. really enjoyed hanging out with yall, cant really explain how we became friends and kept in touch but i'm really glad we did and still do. i can't really understand what holds us together, its pretty mysterious! i keep thinking to myself that i should've made more of an effort to make friends in school especially now that i realize how plastic the world has become since JC. but i have you guys and i think what we have is simple and great.

space

i don't mind less contact, i kinda enjoy the space.

but when we get busy we should put in more effort to stay in touch, right?

and i don't know why you don't sound happy to hear from me...coz i always get really excited to hear from you :(

shag max

had my first call today! shag max! but the dude had a very sexy voice and he kept yapping away, so i just take notes ^^

alex came home today and my parents are also back =) super happy, the house has been too empty and dirty...hai i'm starting to really like singapore...shaggggg can't think anymore but kinda excited about work tomorrow, excited to bring all the stuff i learnt today from sexy-voice analyst back to my report

peace out

i survived

my first week of work! its been getting incrementally intense and complicated but i'm happy to be stretched. its all very intellectually stimulating stuff. if i had it my way i'd be up and about and meeting people more often, but as sharmaine says, its good grounding.

apart from all the research, reading and thinking i've been doing, this week i sent out my first emails to other analysts and next week i will be having my first bunch of calls with smart ibankers! the people in the office are really awesome too. i can't really get out of the school mode though, coz i always feel the need to have "homework", lol. but my overall impression of GIC has been very positive, its such a steady, down-to-earth place. no frills, no glam, but still very zai. one of the scholars in my batch already broke her bond to cross over the the sell-side, possibly with goldman, which is making everyone go a little green in the face. but its been a good thing to think about the opportunities outside as compared to here. makes you really understand and consider what you want.

i'm really thankful for what i have and also thankful that i have the ability to reach higher if i really wanted to. life's pretty good and i'm glad i have this blog to write about the phases i go though, my thoughts on the present and plans for the future. i'm immensely excited about growing up..but i shant get ahead of myself. i'm still a wannabe baby on the inside.

now i want icecream. OH and i want to watch despicable me. ITS SO FLUFFY!

exciting stuff

so life is kinda SUCKY now that i'm working! lol. i enjoy work, but now i have zero time for R&R. its a culture shock.

i'm in a pretty intensio place and my colleagues are mostly guys. oh and "the legend" is in this dept too, the guy who went to penn and did two undergrad degrees AND two masters degrees in 4 years and then came back to GIC. i think he gives the scholarship dept much hope.

yeah so, i'm happy to be learning a huge bunch of new things. its a steep learning curve but i like that i'm basically flailing in the deep end of the pool. i think thats the best way to learn. getting into the momentum/routine of work and thinking hard about my future.

really exciting stuff.

but nothing beats speedboating on a sunny day =)

posterboy

proof that chaolun does indeed exist!

will be starting work tom...SIGH.

i don't really know what i want to be doing with my time but i don't really want to do work thats for sure.

had a big family dinner today and the snooty-ness of my extended family continues to shock me.

hai. so depressing!

i hate that dotacast is now one of my topsites

HOME

i'm back from china. super happy to have access to proper internet. i've missed you blogspot blogs and facebook. i've been surviving on thesuperficial and celebuzz for the past two weeks coz china doesn't allow me to go on facebook but still gives me permission to view fake topless pictures of katy perry without the pink stars (www.thesuperficial.com is loads of fun).

yay home. i like visiting cl in china but i'm really happy not to have to deal with squatting toilets for a while.

parents are away too so its just us three!

some old pictures from my lunch with pat + anna before i left for china. will eventually get down to posting pictures of the mythical creature that is cl.

now to unpack