one day i will understand what i was thinking, feeling or wanting when i did this to us.

maybe when that day comes i will regret throwing away the best thing that ever happened to me.

but i suppose it would be way too late then, even more so than it already is now

i could spend a long time searching for someone like you and something like what we had.

this grief and guilt is very real.

sorry for taking you on this ride, somehow you're always caught on one.

you deserve another shot at real happiness.

gd luck to us all :)